These spiritual window shoppers.....

who idly ask, 'How much is that?' Oh, I'm just looking.
They handle a hundred items and put them down,
shadows with no capital.

What is spent is love and two eyes wet with weeping.
But these walk into a shop,
and their whole lives pass suddenly in that moment,
in that shop.

Where did you go? "Nowhere."
What did you have to eat? "Nothing much."

Even if you don't know what you want,
buy something, to be part of the exchanging flow.

Start a huge, foolish project,
like Noah.

It makes absolutely no difference
what people think of you.

- Mathnawi VI, 831-845
(translated by Coleman Barks)

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Retro-Active channel on TV

In five minutes I'll be able to say that I officially went to bed during the PM hours. TINY STEPS, PEOPLE! TINY STEPS!

On one hand there is a certain awesomeness to concept of the following exchange:

"Late night?"

"Yeah."

"When'd you finally make it to bed?"

"Noon."

"..."

See? Appealing.

On the other hand? Holy crap I miss sleeping at night and I really need to GET THINGS DONE tonight but sleeping while it's light out without blackout curtains isn't as restful as one might like. Also I cannot decide if my allergies are getting worse or if I'm actually kind of sick. /whining.

Catching up on comments and emails tonight. Also. Work. For reals.

p.s. Have watched an entire season of Gilmore Girls. Urge to talk at top speed and be incredibly ungrateful, rising.

ETA: HA! MADE IT! I BITE MY THUMB AT THEE AM HOURS. I BITE MY THUMB.

Tags: ami: life
Current Mood: cynical

Duke Havordh and his most beauteous Lady, Duchess Mary-Grace, are Gleann Abhann's new Crown Prince and Princess after yesterday's Crown Tourney.  I was not able to go to Crown, alas, but thanks to these new-fangled modern-day inventions, the news has spread fast and wide.

Enemies of Gleann Abhann, tremble at the might of our armies - lead under such a strategist as Havordh,  none can stand 'gainst them!  Friends of our fair kingdom - know that we will ever stand faithful and strong at your side, for guarding your lands is as guarding our own.

All Hail the Crown Prince and Princess!

/ahem.

this message brought to you by the letters XYZ and PDQ, and the number 6.  ::sounds of coconut-shell-clops fading in the distance::

-bs

So I started the Gilmore Girls pilot.

( Observations here. )

BTW, Hello Insomniacs and Europe. How are you?

Tags: teevee
Current Mood: awake

Just watched the strangest and yet somehow empowering (for women) movie. It's called "Teeth". The movie follows a girl who has a case of Vagina Dentata.  I thought it was a fairly well made movie with an original (as far as hollywood goes) story, however I think men would be quite a bit more disturbed by this film that women.

If you want to see the movie don't read further, I don't know how to make a cut or link or whatever it's called, yes I know, I do have a couple, but my brother does them for me and he's asleep right now. This post also rambles fairly broadly.

*** SPOILERS ***

The movie is pretty much every man's nightmare, a woman who can emasculate them (literally) should she choose to. I follows a girl that takes an abstinence vow until she marries. It's fairly transparent what will happen when she gets her first boyfriend, he rapes her during an outing at a lake. After the emasculation of said boyfriend she pretty much breaks down and freaks out. It's what happens later that is the meat of the story. It follows her as she evolves both in attitude and mind set. I'm not going to call it morals, as I believe morals are subjective, and the belief of how and when someone has sex is not a moral quandary for me as long as its between 2 consenting individuals of an appropriate mental and emotional maturity.  The protagonist goes through the roller coaster of felling violated and a freak at which point she goes to a gynecologist and he finds out why you shouldn't do bad things,  to becoming a confident and empowered woman when a dirty old man has obvious bad intentions toward her. In the end she winds up not hating what she is, but embracing it.

Should she feel this way? I believe there have been times in many  women lives when they  feel afraid, powerless and insignificant when dealing with men. Men are for a large part physically stronger than women, and no matter how well you know defense skills or how much you exercise, when walking to your car in a deserted garage or down the street late at night you feel just that little bit afraid. In a perfect world no one would be afraid of being assaulted but we do not live in a perfect world.  I'm sure some men have felt unsafe for some of the same reasons as women and I'm not saying that only men do bad things, both sexes can be raped or used in an ill manner. Unfortunately it's women who account for the larger portion rape victims.


OK Ramble done

My BARD score.....



Cool stuff..

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Even COOLER stuff...

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TC

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Baga troubles by wailing Souls

This Thursday, May 22, is 4M clean-Up Day! 

Anyone able and willing, please come and help out. We have alot of cardboard from Regatta still around, as well as alot of dusting, sweeping and mopping to do! 

And for those that might be interested in going, Indiana Jones is playing  at Lowes SB at 7pm and 10pm.

Hope to see you all there!!

Well it feels like a long weekend and it's only Saturday. Yesterday I drove through crappy traffic and just as crappy weather to Tom and Gigi's, hung out watched TV had Pizza and then Tom and I went over to Aakin's hung out for a little bit and picked up some DVD's, then headed back to Tom and Geeg's for the rest of the night of game playing till about 3:30a - 4:00a.

Then I woke up roughly about 8:30am and took a shower and started to head out, got the car's oil changed and then headed to Brian and Liz's, played some tennis with Brian, it was fun, I'd do it again. Then we went to lunch and then came back, watched some baseball on the tv, felt really damned exhausted and then headed back to Brooklyn.

Tonight I plan on playing a little Half Life 2 and then going to sleep, tomorrow I plan on writing more on Anne and then maybe painting.

Monday night is the first Volleyball match of our season...hopefully.

Next weekend Alison and I drive up to New Hampshire to visit my mother.

I happen to have an extra copy of Robocop and Hulk on DVD if anyone wants them let me know.

Still reading the Dark Tower.

That's about it.

And not from anything fun. Been maintainancing. Emptied the garbage, cleaned up the kitchen, swept the floor, did half the dishes...(The Li'l girl did the other half)....took out recyclables. Then, went out, raked up most of the front, hogged down all the weeds with a manual brush cutter, picked up all the non organic garbage, emptied the butt bucket, swept up everything the raking left, put away all the tools laying around, organized the stuff outside a bit better. My neighbor Tommy chipped in and mowed the stuff I hogged down. Wow, I've never seen the yard so.....flat. But that's not all.
First, I went out and ran errands this morning. Bank, stationary store, dollar store, Selden thrift, Men-at-Arms. Cashed my paycheck, got my obligatory scratch off game, picked up olive oil, ersatz gold bond powder, season salt, painters tape. Didn't find any pants at ST, but did buy 6 weekend tee shirts, Including a Black one that says in big red letter..."The chupacabra made me do it"....Picked up 2 Ospreys at MAA, Roman Military clothing 2, Ukrainian Armies 1914-1950. Put 3 on hold, and had Jim order me 2. As per usual, I spent a great deal of time chatting with Jim.
Meanwhile, back at the raunch, In between all the yard work, I managed to get two of the 3 colors on my list shield painted, Give the Li'l girl a pep talk on HL fighting, google the correct plans for list crossbow bolts, send an few e-mails, answer e-mails, read my blogs, and make coffee....

Ummm...yeah, I suppose I should eat something today shouldn't I?.....

TC

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Pop Goes the World by Men Without Hats

It amuses me that they chose the snake picture over all others. Ah well! Press is still good :)
The link;

http://thelittlechimpsociety.com/public-submission/alison-cardinale-interveiwed-by-jami-rosa/

Went out today and got some L-tyrosine at Whole Foods. L-tyrosine, for those who don't know, does for the dopamine levels in one's brainpan what 5-htp does for serotonin: it's a precursor, an amino acid that occurs naturally in meat and such, that converts in the brain to l-dopa. Since it's a given that I have clinical depression, and given that, so far, the two best options for prescription medication (should I go that route) are Lexapro, an SSRI, and Wellbutrin, an SNRI that affects dopamine, I thought I'd try an experiment. I've been doing 5-htp and it hasn't really been helping, so I figured I'd try kicking my poor broken brain's dopamine production up a notch organically.

Holy crap, what a difference it's making. I feel, geez, almost bouncy. Don't feel like crying, the Bad Thoughts I've been having (and think your worst here -- yup, it's been that bad in my head) are gone, I feel like running around the block a few times, which I won't do as it's nearly 100F outside and heat stroke is not my idea of fun, and best of all, I wanna CREATE STUFF. Holy crap.

Think I'm gonna give this a go for awhile. ^___^

(NB: I highly doubt it's a placebo effect, as I had completely forgotten I'd taken it when I noticed a difference.)

Tags: depression
Current Location: Downtown Hell
Current Mood: WEWT

From Duke Palymar on the Armor Archive:

Greetings unto the Noble Populace of the Midrealm from Duke Palymar of the Two Baronies, Regent of the Midrealm,

In the past few days, we have witnessed many fine examples noblesse oblige, as people have lent their voice in support of friend and Kingdom. In an effort to ensure the succession of the Royal lineage, and with support of the Board of Directors of the SCA, Inc., an ad hoc Crown tournament will be held on Sunday, May 26, at 10 am., prior to the already published and announced tournament.

This tournament will be open to Sir Lutr Ulfskjald and those combatants and consorts who are found to be acceptable to the Regent.

Following the conclusion of this tournament, the victor will immediately be Crowned King and Queen of the Midrealm and the previously advertised Crown tournament will commence as scheduled.

Complete details will be posted on the Crown Tourney website in the near future.

Thank you all for your patience and understanding during this unprecedented occasion in the Midrealm,

In Service,
Duke Palymar of the Two Baronies
Regent of the Midrealm

Color me impressed by the way this is being handled.

Lutr has been upfront and classy, and Palymar has also handled it adeptly, and I assume that the society seneschal, society president and others had a hand in this.

I am perfectly capable of disagreeing with the Board. (No, really Liam?).

I do not think they had a choice in this case because the law is clear, and I think that despite what has happened, it's all going to be OK.

everyones favourite scene from The Night Porter. NSfw*.





*haha, it is a pun.